If so... how do you deal with if?

I feel I fucked up mine a long time ago - and by this I mean that I was WAYYY too fucking self conscious of it as a teen and started shaving it. (I thought it was visibly noticeable and had terrible self esteem) but now I’m in my 20s and obviously years of shaving has fucked up the hair growth there. Ill get ingrown hairs, or if I don’t keep up with it now it grows back pretty thick 😭😭

I hate going to the beach or showing my tummy cause of it.