wtf to do with dh

I had an extremely rough birth

*37 hrs from active to c section

*tried vaginal wouldn't work (babies head to big)

* had my epidural redone

*dr gave me pitocin (enough to override the epidural with pain)

*maxed out both types of epidural meds

*maxed out the morphine

*could feel the knive and my baby freaking out during procedure

*c section incision was smaller than needed (they never checked his size via ultrasound)

*got literally yanked up the table by my uterus

*told dr I didnt wanna see(my mind would fill in the blanks my body was barely not feeling) dr opened window.

*passed out 3seconds after meeting my baby boy

*hemorrhaging I wasn't told about til next day.

*major swelling in my legs they ache to move at all

*failed breastfeeding so heavy swollen painful boobs

so extremely difficult. I'm sore weak and sometimes feel dizzy even but my husband keeps getting frustrated easily with baby and frankly has no idea what he is doing it's easier for me to just do it but he gets upset that I'm not resting. I can't when im anxious ull end up hurting baby either out of anger or something preventable with basic childcare knowledge.

I wanted him to take childcare classes during pregnancy to mainly give him the knowledge and confidence to do well and ease my anxiety. he refused "how hard can it be" "I'll figure it out as I go" "ull b there"

he didnt even know to burp baby b4 laying him down. yet had watch me do it every feeding for 5days. constantly says "i give up your turn I've tried everything" yet hasn't tried one my top five suggestions(feed,burp/fart,diaper,hot/cold,skin-to-skin/movement). how am I supposed to get rest when u cut ur "turn" short. or didnt hear him cry full volume or sry gotta hit up the gym for 3+hrs.

I talk to him bout it but nothing changes at all and if I could trust hed b ok taking care of baby on his own I'd easily rest. I'd ask my family to help him more but he refuses to let them thinks they'll do worse than he ever can I just need them tohelp making sure this kid survives n lives day to day . every adult in my family has raised at least 2kids to his 0 but he thinks he can do better wtf.