tomorrow will be one year...

tomorrow will be one year since day 1 of my first pregnancy. 3 miscarriages since. today is testing day to see if clomid worked. nothing but negatives. any tips on feeling positive vibes for my future as a mother? I'm spending the day alone once again...because my significant other likes to be out in the world, being productive. it's hard to feel ok with the fact that he choses to max his life out in business that doesn't include me (coaching baseball, farming, and being a recruiter). I just need someone to be with me. I don't have many close friends around here, those that I have are not familiar with the pain of infertility.