Possibly Another uh oh!!!!!!b

So 2015 we met 2016 I took antibiotics and 3 weeks later we had sex. A month after that I found out I was pregnant. We moved in our house we bought in April 2016 and we had our little girl that October. We got engaged January 2018 and our wedding will be May 18 2019!!!!!! Our current house is on the market and we are looking for a bigger house and land. We have the wedding mostly planned! We are about to start potty training! We have been talking about another baby after the wedding..., I have found out I’m anemic and have low iron levels worsen by my emergency c section...... now after my first treatment I was doing great and then I started my period and it didn’t stop for a month the last week of that month it was light enough I didn’t need a tampon and well my partner and I got tired of waiting around and decided to do the deed. Since I was on birth control and in the middle of a packet I thought nothing of it. The next morning I had two huge blood clots and I called my doctor she asked what was going on and I got my blood taken and it was concluded I just had a bad patch of birth control!!!! I then immediately asked if I need the plan b since it was still within time to take it. She told me she wouldn’t be too concerned about it because even though it was a bad pitch it’s still birth control so the hormones still worked. A month has gone since then and I’ve felt fine, a little moody and having a few cravings. Until today. It hit me. And I knew!!!! I’m almost 99% positive I’m pregnant. Tomorrow’s my period date but I’m doubting it’ll come. My stomach is tight and sore and I’m not having my normal period symptoms. I’ll take a test in two days if I don’t start. I have no idea how I’m going to tell my fiancé. We are dealing with the terrible twos a little early and it’s been really hard. I have no idea if I’m excited or not. Last time I didn’t get to tell him (his friends fiancé and I were talking and I accidentally let it slip and she went and told her fiancé and he told my man and my man asked me) so I never got to process it alone. Anyways back to the present. We are dealing with the terrible twos and he says we aren’t having any more. After the pst two days weve been discussing another child. He was extremely serious and now I’m nervous. My entire body is sore and my insides are sore and stretching I can feel them! My child is even being all weird and wanting to cuddle against my stomach (which she doesn’t normally do she’s usually not cuddly unless she’s sick and when she is sick she likes having her entire body on my shoulders basically) so something is up. I don’t know what to do. I cannot wait until tomorrow. I cannot keep this from him. Do I go ahead and say something or do I wait a few days test and then tell him? How can this be happening again????? I’m so confused because now my hopes are up. And I know they will possibly be broken but I didn’t realize how much I wanted another child. #EmbracingTheLateNightMunchies #SoreBelly #NoSymptoms

UPDATE:

So I couldn’t take it anymore I made a lame excuse and rushed to Dollar General and got 3 tests! I’m in the bathroom waiting on the results!!!! My only problem is I took 20 pregnancy tests before I got a positive the first go around. I’m scared it may do the same the next go around. And what if it is negative and it was all in my head 😔 how am I going to explain why I’m upset over something we were suppose to do next year?

Update #2:

So it’s negative.... but the line is really faint which isn’t normal (a few months ago I was a day late and took one for shits and giggles and I distinctly remember the line being extremely dark. A lot darker than this one) so I’m going to wait and see if my period comes and if it doesn’t I got two more! I now know how I feel about it though. I was really upset when I saw the two lines and not three. What do I do 😔 my brother is getting married in July my sister in law in November and us in May of 2019. Is it selfish of me to want a baby now ? Is it selfish to let him know I want one and how I feel about it 😔 I just want to stop peeing every 5 minutes 😑😔

Update #5

He got it out of me after we got in bed and noticed a was upset. He got really quiet and finally I asked if he would be scored and he said no not really now isn’t a good time we are selling the house and trying to buy one. I hope I’m not pregnant now. I don’t want to go through another shamed unwanted pregnancy 😔 I have no idea what I’ll do if in another month I don’t get my period and I get a positive test. 😔😔😔

Update #6

No period so I took a test with “morning pee” and it was positive but then the control line never showed up 😔 it was a defective test. So I gotta wait until tomorrow morning to test again

Update #7

A lot has happened since the last update. I haven’t had time to take another test! I was fired and we are trying to sell our home and still no period. I’m going to get one soon. I’m just terrified

Update #8

Glow says I’m 17 days late.... I am going to wait until I’m done with this birth control packet to test again. I’m acting as though I’m pregnant ( no booze, prenatals, lots of water -dang heat wave, not a lot of meds) I did go through an extreme nausea stage 2 weeks ago and I thought I was dying it was so bad so that’s when I decided to do all of the treat it as a pregnancy until my period. My first I had to go two months before my hormones were high enough to give a positive (I wasted 20 good tests 😑) update on the job- I got hired today I start tomorrow. We have a second showing for our house. And it’s the week before my sugar pills and I’m not experiencing any pre period symptoms. I’m terrified if I am pregnant something is wrong due to my levels being messed up so next week regardless I’m going to call and demand to be seen by my OB because if I am and somethings wrong I want to help it as fast as I can! I’m starting to feel my anemic symptoms again and feel I’m going to need another treatment soon if symptoms get worse like last time and they told me if this happened while pregnant I would have to be hospitalized to be monitored. The only issue is the treatment I have to have can’t be done while I am pregnant. They put me in a high risk category and advised me not to ttc for at least a year (back in Jan.) so I’m all around a basket case but I’m waiting for next week to make sure I miss another period. I have no idea what I’m going to do. I just hope if something is going on my body is strong enough for myself and my baby. And if I’m not pregnant then hell im praying for a phantom pregnancy because I don’t want to imagine what else it could be causing this stuff! I just want to have a normal cycle again or a cycle at all so I’m not driving myself mad! I don’t understand what could have happened to even cause my cycle to skip if it’s not a baby. I’m at lost 😔 I’m sorry I’m rambling and a nervous wreck and overreacting and thinking into things. 😔