Sooo I’ve been talking to this guy in Florida for a couple of weeks now and at first yea I was very interested in him, we would talk every day and FaceTime each other until we fall asleep. Even if we haven’t met in person he already told me that he loved me 2 weeks into us talking and because he constantly says it to me i felt pressured to say it back even though I wasn’t on the same page, don’t get me wrong I like him a lot but the emotion love is sooo strong to me that I have to really mean it before I can say it to anyone. So I do regret saying it back when I wasn’t on the same page of emotion towards him. But anyways couple days past and he becomes more attached and buying me things when he travels then he tells me he wants to date me officially now (we were going to wait until he moves back to Utah so we can officially meet and go on a date before we move into something serious) he didn’t want to wait any longer so he asked me to be his girlfriend..... of course because I can’t expressed my true feelings because it’s so hard for me to put them into words I said yes. After that I wasn’t the same I kept thinking about it and how awful I felt because I wasn’t on the same page and I felt like we were moving waaayyyy to fast. I didn’t want to rush into anything but here I am saying yes and not getting vocal about my feeling with him.....

so this morning I finally had the guts to say how I felt, I told him that I wanted to wait and meet him in person before we get into a serious relationship because honestly I really want to get to know him better than to jump in a relationship with him you know? I want to go on cheesy fun dates with him and have him meet my parents before anything

He gets upset that and tells me that I should find someone else, saying that why make this stressful on both of us and how I don’t put enough effort into this relationship

Like guys I am trying to express my feelings with him, this is my first really serious relationship so I’m figuring this out along the way trying to open up to him as much as I can because I am the person that keeps everything bottled up inside to the point where I have a break down alone and try to get through it on my own. So for him to tell me that I don’t but enough effort really hurt me...

I’m the type of person that finds it so difficult to open up their feelings to someone because the words get trapped in my mind and I don’t know how to tell someone how I truly feel

I like him so much because he has helped me become a better person already that now I’m blaming myself because maybe I’m not putting enough effort...

I don’t know I just need advice and clarity on all this, like how do people take a chance to date someone?

Why is it so hard for me to express my feelings?

How does a person know that they’re the one for them ?

Why is being in a relationship so hard to do?

Ps. I’m sorry if this post doesn’t make sense at all I just thought I could use some insight from other people 😅🤷‍♀️