Rape and my bf’s response

I was raped by a ‘friend’ of mine that turned out to be a psychotic pathological liar. The guy i’m in love with that was pretty much my boyfriend isn’t talking to me and blocked me on my phone, instagram and snap (not my second instagram so i message him there), says that he cannot forgive me because i’m a cheater because saying no over and over and freezing/ not fighting is me cheating. I have never been in love before so i am just so obsessed with making this right. I know he will probably come around but it hurts me knowing that he is heartbroken and mad at me, even though i am the one that should be getting the support. Not sure what to do now but wait...

The rape doesn’t hurt me that much, not having him hurts a million times more. it sucked not having him at my birthday party tonight... i’m 19 now and he is 22, when will he realize???