im so over it.

So I been with my partner for five years now and we used to watch porn together before we had our two beautiful children but things change with women's bodys during pregnancy and I didn't feel comfortable anymore ànd I told him how I felt and he wasn't so supportive of it. I felt bad and like I was trying to change who he was but if it was the other way around I would stop watching porn for him, he pleases me enough.

A few weeks ago we started hanging around my partners brother and misses and there beautiful children after a long two years of a fallen out. That night he looked up " petite blond small tits." well that best describes he's brothers girlfriend.

I couldn't help my self but bring it up. I used to be small petite but always had medium to big boobs and I'm not that anymore. You can clearly see there's not a stretch mark on her and she is in best shape. It made me feel like absolute shit. My tits hang to the floor and I'm all out of whack and just seeing that hurt.

He apologised and swore it wasn't to do with her and he's over porn and realises that its really bringing me down. ( I have really bad post natal depression and I do try to control my emotions).

Tonight he was weird on he's phone and went straight to the toilet. Well there its is all over he's history amateur beautiful women's selfies. I can't fucking win. so I said fuck it. He jumped into the shower and I guess wasn't expecting me to join him and I think he was going to enjoy some alone time.. well I jumped in and he blew me off. So I layed on the bed and waited and he blew me off again.

Am I wrong for feeling this way. :(