Body shape

Um this is very uhh hard for me.

Ok. Right. Now I’m 17 years old, I’m 125pds and I feel shitty about my body. I have this unwanted fat, and I hate it. I get bullied for how Fat I am, not just in school even in my family. People always make comments on how I’ve gained some pounds and such.

I wanna loose weight.

Actually, no, I don’t mind the weight. I want my body shape to be better. I want to tone my body, I want to have a smaller waist, I wanna work on my butt, I want to loose the thunder thighs I have. I wanna loose the face fat I have gained.

This past year has been tough so I had started stress eating... reason why I gained this image I hate.

I wanna loose weight/ fix my body before July. I wanna feel good abt myself.

And I wanna do it all in a healthy way. Cuz I started doing things that were unhealthy in order to gain it, but I had to stop cuz I almost ended up in. A hospital cuz of it.

Plz help me out any way u can..

I’m terrified and so lost. I don’t know how or where to start.

This is me before: (last summer when I started gaining weight)

This is me now: (yes I cut my hair RIP I miss it)

Even “before” I was not happy with my body, and I wanted a smaller waist, and because of I have broad shoulders it’s hard for me...

I’m the only one in my family who has broad shoulders. So I’m the “biggest” in my family.. so I’ve been insecure abt this for almost all my life.

Please help me change myself in a way I become happy with who I am.