i know something is up

so i am now 9 days late. was supposed to start on the 20th.. ive been late before so its not weird. i vae been prating and practising not to be crazy about this like i have i. the past.. and i feel like ive been doing good. the thing is my pms symptoms are not as usual and the ones i have come and go .. one minute im fine next minute i feel nautious ( mostly the smell of food)

then i feel lkke im coming down with a flu cuz my nise starts runni g like crazy and i get randkm headaches.. and some fatigue(hubby says a lot, i dont really notice.) mood swings are normal i guess althoughh i do recall getting g a lil emo for random stuff.

im trying to not lokk too much into it cuz i think i missed my fertile window anyways. it just sucks feeling something might be up and then also having 2bfn.

i know i need to gef on bc and get my health in check so maybe that has to do with my frusteration.

any input would be greatly appreciated. 💕💕💕oh and one more thing. i smoke weed. and usually when i pms it helps. but this time i feel.like i get very natious after smoking and the jigh males me feel guilty???