I need emotional support 😢😭

I just found out yesterday I was pregnant. My boyfriend was there and said he was happy. My boyfriend was studying for an exam at this time. it was like s switch.He went to being kind to being completely vicious. Even tell me to take pills to kill "it"

I told him keep the child is my choice. after I said that he took his stuff and left. I know I deserve better but now I can't stop crying. I don't know what to do. I am just shocked that he switched in a few hours. then calling me a monster. All I ever did was care for him and support him. I thought we were a team.

I am so hurt now.

I shouldn't cry but right now maybe because of hormones I feel extra.

I work from 9am-7pm yet he is home but never cleaning or doing anything to help me. maybe this is for the best.

I feel my heart breaking

when I try to make things work he told me he hopes I lose it.

my heart hurts for someone who said they love me.... I feel it's not love.

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More information: I live in a foreign country. I am on the other side of the world from my family. it's really hard to find friends I can trust. I haven't told my mom yet she will probably scolded me..... my sister won't help me. I feel truly alone in this.