I WANT A BABY.. (long post)

Do you ever just feel like “why isn’t God allowing me to bring life into this world, but he will let people who don’t want children to have them”. I’ve prayed, pleaded, & begged. I’ve looked at many negative pregnancy test, holding them in different angles just to see if I could possibly see a line. I don’t understand why it’s so hard for me to get pregnant. Maybe I’m not giving enough time? Maybe I’m being too impatient? I know with time, in God’s time, it will happen. I just figured I would have had 2 children by now.

It’s just hard, tiring, & a defeating feeling. It’s a numbness when someone announces their pregnancy because that’s what I’ve been trying so hard to do, while some people get pregnant with the first try.

I’ve learned to look on the brighter side sometimes. When I see my period, I know I have a timeframe to try again. I will NOT give up.

Please tell me I’m not the only one. Please tell me someone else knows my EXACT feeling. Baby dust to all!