No support

I just want a little support...me and my bf are waiting until we get married to have sex...and let me tell you...he is the only love source I have...him moving out on me is very hard and I know it’s for the best but i can’t wrap my head around him being gone and me being all alone in this bad neighborhood...I just want to be safe I’m constantly scared...I have no where else to go plus this is my home just me and my kiddos...I wish I had someone to come stay with me...I’m just dying the only thing I keep doing is studying my scriptures and bible stories,and exercising 😓😭😭😭and I recently stopped smoking weed...I just want my life to be right for once and it’s so so hard...p.s I got slapped last week by my next door neighbor and I’m scared to go outside and my bible study people are scared to come here...and I can’t even walk to the meetings ...