scared of gender dissapointment

I feel like an awful person for actually admitting this, but i REALLY want a girl. my son is the most amazing little human being and i love him dearly.

i guess my fear is, having two boys ill feel like im replacing my first born. sounds silly i know.

my gut has told me from the beginning its a girl but i cant shake the fear of not getting the little girl ive always wanted! my husband doesnt want any more kids so this is my last chance. my last pregnancy my husband swore up and down it was a boy and he was right and this time he swears its a girl even if hes scared to have a little girl.

i will love this baby no matter what,

have prayed for this little miracle so im not trying to be selfish. please tell me im not the only one, no rude comments please. if this offends you im sorry.