🙄 We'll See

So the guy I'm dating couldn't see me yesterday because his friend made up a fake trip to go to Illionois just to see if my guy would go along with it. That was the only day I was fully off work this week, the rest I work 4:30-8:30. So they never went so I'm already irritated about that and then I have my mom jn my ear telling me what I need to do and should do so that was more irritating and then I just hit thia plane of calmness. I knew it wasn't worth an argument with him because "he gets irritated easily" and only agrees with me or just says ok, here's proof

anytime i try telling him how I feel I get that and if i try to call him he either doesn't answer cause his phones on silent or doesn't listen or respond because "he gets irritated easily" or is playing the game or watvhing something on youtube and he has this idea that women don't want to have a conversation they just want yo be heard so him responding would be pointless... Any ways, today he wanted to come get me but I told him i work but he could come earlier and then take me yo work if he wanted to. I also told him I was sad about yesterday because I got my hair done and was gonna wear something cute to surprise him. he says:

And you see he's still insisting that I didn't say anything. And on top of that if you're waiting the whole day on your friend (who obviously doesn't give af about your time) to tell you whether you're leaving the state or not, why would I think you were coming to get me? So then he tells me he doesn't know if he can come get me today at 11 because he's tired (mind you he's already up playing the game, mind you he didn't do anything yesterday and he's off tomorrow as well and I have to be at work at 4:30 meaning he can go back home and nap).

He says we can try again next week. Mind you I only get to see him once a week. So I kinda went off on him saying everything I just put in those parenthesis and so he got this dry voice he does asking when and where i work and then saying he'll be here at 11:30. And I feel like he's gonna have an attitude, and I'm still just really calm. I been arguing with myself for 8 months and crying and now Im just in a calm state.

I feel like I shouldn't have to do all that for him to want to come see me, especially since we don't see each other a lot. I never had this problem. Like he has a 30 something minute drive. My ex would drive 45 minutes everyday early in the morning to come see me and we'd spend the whole day together and then he'd drive home. No complaints. I dated a guy that drove 30 minutes almost every day to come see me only for like and hour or two because it was his brother's car and he'd drive home, no complaints.

Dated a guy who took the bus TO ME because he didn't have a car and rode it back to his place with me and if he didn't feel like it he paid for an uber for me to come to him. Had another guy who literally rode his fuckin bike across town to come see me, spend the day with me and then rode his bike BACK ACROSS TOWN at night NO COMPLAINTS. And all of these guys were active and had jobs and were plaenty tired. They just wanted me to be there and around. So wtf dude. I know he's not them and I'm not saying he doesn't care about me, but this shit is ridiculous.