Uggghh I’m freaking out

I deleted this app a couple months ago. Because I was getting discouraged. Soon was just relying on how I felt to determine when my period is. Which worked both months. Except last Monday when I thought I started it was light like normal with the first two days. Then normally it get really heavy normally I have not so normal blood clots On the pad. But this time it was getting lighter and lighter. Like just a little pink when I wiped. And then nothing. Yesterday. This morning I went ahead and took a P test. Well it showed a faint line but I could see it well enough. And I’m so excited. But I’m scared it’s a false and I want to cry. Cuz I can’t go get another one till I get off work. Mind you I work at a gas plan so I get up at 5:30. So it was pretty early when I tested lol. I’m supper exit I just hate getting my hopes up. I feel like I was seeing stuff. Or maybe it’s like a hysterical pregnancy. I keep trying to throw things out there so I don’t get my hopes up to hi but it’s hard. I’m freaking out.