Is birth control really worth me feeling like this ?

Hi ladies , this is gonna be a long one . SORRY

so I’ve been pretty apprehensive about making a post. One because I DONT want anyone to look past it because it’s so long && I not get advice. Two, because it’s so much to tell, I hoped a video option would come but I haven’t seen that yet . But here goes , My senior year of HS I got in the pill . No real big issues , my period went from 3-4 days to a full week . I started to experience cramps, which I never got before . Sometimes I would feel nauseated, especially if I didn’t take the pill at the exact same time I did the previous dose . The clinic I was going to gave it to you for free if your parents didn’t know . But the saw my mom pick me up one day && they stopped giving me it ... fast forward, June 2013 , I got the nexplanon. Named got change to implanon a couple years later. The first month , nothing . Which was expected, new BC takes time to adjust . Month two comes, THE WORST CRAMPS IVE EVER EXPERIENCED IN MY LIFE . I like almost passed out it was so bad . I then proceeded to bleed for 42 days straight !!! 4 2 FORTY FRIGGN TWO ! (Looking back over the time I had it ) I slowly but surely started to lose parts of me . I was depressed affffffff. Like wanting to kill myself . I put on quite a bit of weight (to my standards) and that made me even more depressed. I was constantly UNNATURALLY AND UNNECESSARILY moody. That constant up down was exhausting. I seen my sex drive slowly wither up && die . I was a HORNBALL before && took pride in my nastiness . I had no desire for sex for a while . && even when I did , it wasn’t as enjoyable, I wouldn’t really get wet like before , I’d burnout so easily.... It really took a toll on my relationship. From all the fighting because of how I was feeling && the lack of sex life . I had migraines that were out of this world ! I mean someone taking a sledgehammer to my skull would’ve probably been less painful. I would literally want to die from the pain . NOTHING HELPED ! I mean I was throwing up , needing to stay in the dark for like a week at a time . Feeling like my head would seriously explode. Literally balling up into a ball && wishing I’d die ... I would take pill after pill after pill after pill && NOTHING HELPED . Excedrine migraine was the only thing that helped in the very beginning of the migraines , but then that stopped working . Tramadol , Percocet, Tylenol with codeine, NOTHING HELPED , narcotics really only made me sleep . Never took away pain . My immune system was shot ! I got sick so easily ! I was always bleeding . I would stop for 5 or so days , then be right back to bleeding . It varied from really light to ocean of blood gushing from my body . The constant bleeding caused for constant tampons /pads/pantyliners. At one point I was buying all that more than I was buying food ! Seriously! That’s another reason my sex life died . The constant bleeding was too much . At one point , it regulated it self . For about 3-4 months (I believe this was during year 2 or 3) I had a period once each moth . Then, out of no where it went back to bleeding as usual. Always wearing pads && what not caused a lot of irritation && breakouts to my lady parts . Itching , burning , bumps , boils, I really thought I had an std , but I didn’t have anything. My appetite was seriously NEVER ENDING . I was constantly starving. I’d feel full for a while then back to hungry . I was disgusted with how much I ate , && the weight I put on . Which caused even more depression. I felt unloved , unwanted, like my body was broken or something , my brain was literally altered . My memory was shit . I’d forget everything && nothing ! If my brain wasn’t in my head I would’ve forgotten it every where I went . I had no desire to do anything ! work cook clean even get out of bed .. I got it taken out October of last year. When I say all of those symptoms and things I was experiencing stopped completely they stopped completely!!!! The week after I got it taken out the migraines were gone(I had a migraine pretty much every day) the depression , the moodiness , everything that was going on . I really felt like myself again. I felt more upbeat, I felt more pleasant, I literally saw myself in a different light. I talked to the nurse practitioner about all the different types of forms of birth control and so I tried the Xulane (zoolane) patch. At first everything was great no issues no problems. The only thing was I felt slightly nauseous and lightheaded in the beginning on the days that I did change the patch. It lasted for a day or two and then I felt fine. Fast forward to April, my migraines are back ! I feel kinda moody not is bad as it was before but I definitely do feel moody. My main issue is just that the headaches are back && I hate feeling like this. I went through this for far too long and I don’t want to continue it! so a few days ago my head was hurting really bad. I was at work and couldn’t focus, all the noise lights sounds were really killing me and so I just went to the bathroom and took the patch off and I haven’t put another one on and I don’t intend to put another one on.... two days later the headache went away .... since downloading this app I’ve been reading different posts from different ladies and I see quite a few people have a problem with hormones not working well with their bodies. Is that what this is ? just my body just not reacting well to hormone based birth control ? I was so sick and throwing up so hard just the other day! . even now I have a mild headache and it’s got my stomach feeling kind of woozy. It throbs when I strain or stretch , couch , sneeze , that kinda thing ... I’m really not sure of what to do anymore . I’ve wanted to get off of her control for a while now because of how the implant in my arm affected me but I told myself I know I need to be on it if I’m in a relationship because I don’t want to get pregnant right now. yes I can abstain from sex, not do it, but things happen So.... what can I do? what should I do should I get off of it completely? Should I try a different one and see if my body reacts differently? Or what? Because I really don’t know what to do. I do not feel like birth-control is for me at all. But I need to do something so pregnancy is not happening... condoms are always an option , but my babe && I have been together 5 years , we haven’t used them in so long . Idk man ....

Any words of advice from anyone who’s been through the same thing ? methods of birth control that that are better than pills , implants , ptaches that kind of thing?

Birth-control is making me miserable guys , what can I do ?!!!!!