Jealousy

I just need to vent... I’m 30 and a half and my husband is almost 29. I have been desperate for a baby for 10 years and have had 4 miscarriages since I was 16. I’m terrified something is wrong but my doctor won’t entertain discussion because we haven’t been actively trying long enough, and my husband won’t go and get checked so we can be prepared if there’s anything we might be up against. All my friends (bar one) have kids, some more than 1. Everyone asks me when I’ll be having kids and every time they ask it kills me a little bit. My hubby said when I get a full time job, I’ve got one now, so I asked if we could start trying, now he wants to wait til he is 30... it’s only a year but I actually don’t think I can wait that long :( I want to start trying for a family now. Is anyone else in the same boat? I feel so alone :(