I need body help please

I’m truly not looking for compliments/affirmation. Just help. I used to be very slim and thin. Not sure if birth control and stress contributed, plus school and depression (poor diet and cravings). I need so much help. I look at myself and cry. I really do. I feel terrible. I live in a place where people care too much about their looks and they look amazing in bikinis. Flat tummies and perky butts and amazing abs. I just graduated college and I feel terrible that I can’t give my man better than this.

I have very low motivation and food aversions (too long to explain), so I’m really picky and I hardly have an appetite unless it’s like bread etc. I know diet is 80% of it but how can I do this when I’m unmotivated and poor and hate veggies? I like sushi and Mexican and soup etc but everything is hard to eat for me since I have a sensory processing disorder as well. Help, I used to be anorexic and don’t want to fall into old habits.

I should mention I’m not fat (I included good angles to show you the difference) but I definitely am not thin.