so i dont think im getting better

so it's been about a month since I got diagnosed with PMDD. and I've been on the generic version of Lexapro for a while and I can't go a day without taking them. I get severe headaches and i'll be the nastiest person you'd ever meet. but I bought Moody Bird pills from HUM and I haven't tried them yet. I also have been consuming alot of CBD. (had to give you a summary)

so yesterday I thought I could go a day with just my CBD gummies and my CBD vape pen WITHOUT the pills and boy was I wrong. my bf and I were trying to go to the mall, and as soon as he said something I didn't like (which was probably nothing) I ended up storming out the mall, and screaming and crying the whole way home. we haven't spoken to each other since last night and I feel so ashamed. I can usually control it better than that. man... just when I think I'm taking steps in the right direction...