Any cycle buddy on the ttw?

I’m very anxious!! I have 6 days until a pregnancy test and hoping this month is the one. I’ve been trying for 4 months now, I got pregnant the first month but it ended in a miscarriage at 5 weeks and 5 days. I remember going to the obgyn for an ultrasound and we could not even see a sac and then doc gave me the sad news. Also I remember how much I bled and the huge gray clot I passed which probably was fetal tissue just 4 days after having a bfp. That’s why now I’m anxious every month, I want my baby so bad, send me baby dust 🙏🏽 and thanks