Tired....

It’s probably my pregnancy hormones today but I’ve been really emotional and tired mentally these past two days. I just want to feel normal. Everyday there seems to be a new battle to face with my body and I am tired of it.

To help you understand, here’s a little backstory: in 2013 I was diagnosed with Graves Disease. It nearly took my life at the time (I was only 17 years old). I had a very rare condition with it. Ever since then I have not had one day where I’ve felt normal, or like I did before I got sick. I am almost 24 years old now and I’m just tired of never feeling good. I hate it because I’m afraid people think all these symptoms are in my head but they aren’t. They are real. I really just don’t feel good. What’s more aggravating is that I eat really healthy. I drink healthy smoothies everyday. Everyday for lunch I eat a bunch of fruit. For dinner I get my protein. I drink plenty of water. So why don’t I ever feel good? Yesterday I felt as though I had a bad fever, but no fever. Today, I just feel weak and nauseated. (Which being pregnant I know is normal) it just seems like there’s no break. I’m just a little stressed and feeling the need to rant. Not really looking for advice or sympathy! Just wanting to rant, if anyone can understand where I’m coming from. 😭