Lol confession ofc

I am in deep need of some advice. I’m starting high school soon and I’ve just recently felt alone. Like I’ve lost myself. I don’t think it’s depression because I’m just really emotional, I don’t cut. I definitely don’t want to die I love being able to live. I used to but I woke up and realized I don’t need that. But I feel like I’ve lost my relationship with god and my family and friends mainly. We just don’t seem to connect. Any advice on how to fix that?