I feel so defeated...

Today would make AF 2 days late... I was so sure this would be it!!! It would be our month.... Literally as I was at the store buying tests, I felt AF start.. I am crushed. I feel like it will never happen, and it makes me feel like life is incomplete. I don't have any friends that understand the struggle and to be sad with me.... Of course there is my husband, and even though I know it hurts him to, he isn't emotional, and I feel like I just need someone to cry with me. It just isn't fair. We did things "by the book". We have been together for forever, we didnt move in together until after marriage, we bought a house together... And we worked so hard to be where we are, and I just feel like we are being ripped off by life. I know I sound like a crybaby. I am just heart broken and I needed to post this just to be able to get it out to anyone who may see it and understand... 😭