everything around seems to be babies💔

hi ladies i feel so fed up and emotional today I had a miscarriage febuary and been ttc ever since the pregnancy was a shock as we wasn't really ttc but ever since we have lost are angel baby we want it so much more! everywere i go i notice babies prams baby clothes pregnant women even when I am at home i on TV adverts friends becoming pregnant even facebook i am happy for these women but I carnt help but feel sad and a tad jealous i know i shouldn't because some of these women may have been through a loss like alot of us women my mind was playing games on me last month with symptoms that were just in my head as i got a BFN after bfn my sister has just told me she wants to ttc shes a midwife and she said she doesn't feel it's right for me but why should she stop living her life because of me i just hope this month is my month and it would be so amazing for us sisters to be pregnant at the same time but then a little voice inside me is saying shes going to get pregnant and im not and im going to be so upset when I was younger i always new I wanted babies and always thought it would be so easy when actually it's not ... my heart really goes out to all you women out there ttc and who have suffered a loss like myself I have always looked always it as I was lucky loosing baby at 8 weeks and not 8 months or still born you will all be in my prayers tonight to send babies your way and hopefully to me too❤❤❤❤❤❤