TTC AFTER A MISSED MISCARRIAGE. HEARTBROKEN

day in day out I think when will I get my dream, find out the news I've wanted to hear for months and months... I lost my first baby a 9 weeks 4 days in October 2017, it was a missed misscarriage I only knew something was wrong because I stopped feeling pregnant, I booked for a reassurance scan and was told the heart beat was slow which then 1 week later ended up going back and the heart beat stopped... people who hasn't experienced this maybe thinks it's sad yes but you didn't meet the baby because to some people who hasn't had a baby or got pregnant just sees it as a cell..but this was mg baby, everything I've wanted and my world come crashing down, so it happens ocotober 2017 I'm still trying and no luck every month I get disheartened..not a day goes by where i don't cry, everything around me is just about babies. I've started to think what about If there is something more to it. j basically come off the pill last March and g9t pregnant within 3 months but why now is it taking so long ?!?! I've read up loads on preseed has anyone tried this ? all my Love to anyone who's gone through anything bad xxxx