Living in constant fear 😞

Good morning 🌞 ladies!

Soo I am currently on my 5th pregnancy. I have two children living, three angels & currently pregnant. My first babies are 11 & 9 now. I had a miscarriage at 19 weeks in May 2016, another at 23 weeks in June 2017, & this pregnancy was twins but one passed at 15 weeks Tuesday before last. I have a syndrome called antiphospholipid syndrome & issues with my blood so I’m prone to losing my children now & this pregnancy is complicated for different reasons, but the baby is healthy & I’m 17 weeks. I’m just in a constant fear imma lose this child too & never have my rainbow baby. I’m tired of having funerals for my children. 😞💔