Scared about medical problems

Last week on wednesday, I had a miscarriage at 12 weeks pregnant. For a traumatic experience it went pretty routine. The worst of it was over 5 days later.

But then on Sunday I suddenly was hit with full body muscle tremors. I couldn’t control anything my body was doing, but I was fully away, not in any pain, could breath just fine, and even my heart was beating normally. We went to urgent care and nobody knows what is causing it.

It lasted 6 hours sunday, then the next day at work it hit full force again at 2:00pm. A coworker had to drive me to the urgent care because my husband was 2 hours away at a job for work. They run blood work again and still couldn’t find out what was wrong with me, so they scheduled a brain scan to make sure I don’t have a tumor or lesion that could be causing it.

I’m scared about what’s happening to my body. Losing my baby was horrible, but now this... when the tremors hit it looks like I’m having a seizure, but I’m fully aware and can speak coherently through the hours long ordeal. They already ruled out parkinsons, so it’s either stress related or brain related. And by the looks on the doctor’s faces, I think saying stress is just a way of saying they have no clue without the brain scan.

I’m scared that this will be my life from now. Random 4-8 hour long boughts of tremors so bad that I can’t write my name or even feed myself because my hands shake so bad and my neck jerks around. I lay down and can’t sleep because I flop around from the tremors like a fish out if water.

I’m so scared of what they will find when they do the brain scan. I’m 26. I just want to have a normal happy life... I just want to try again for a baby. But if these tremors are my new normal, what kind of parent could I be? When they hit I can’t hold a glass of water or a fork, how could I hold a baby?