Just feeling down and could use some positive stories...second missed miscarriage on 4/13 when we found out at our 9 week ultrasound our baby only measured at 6 w four days. Same thing happened in December when our baby was supposed to be 9 weeks and measured just over 8 weeks. I’ll be turning 39 in less then two months and am starting to get really scared. We have no children as I’m from nyc and ppl get married later in life me being one of them at 37. I never thought I wouls be on this road. I have no health problems. I do everything right. I take care of myself , and I would be a wonderful mom and I’m so mad scared and upset right now that this happened to me a second time. I am seeing a fertility specialist now even tho my general obgyn thinks it’s just bad luck” but I can’t afford to waste time. So I’m doing blood work to test for blood clotting disorders , an HSG once my cycle comes back which who knows how long that will take .... I keep hoping I’ll wake up and still be pregnant and this will all be a nightmare but it isn’t. I wish I was even just two years younger so I could bide my time but with turning 40 in 2019 I’m scared shit and panicking. I was told by my obgyn last time to only wait one cycle which I did and we got pregnant on the second one. She said you’re more fertile after a D&C.; Now my question is am i making he right choice by seeing a specialist and waiting until these tests are done which might not be til June/ July and then try again??? Or screw it and just try again right now since supposedly 3 MC aren’t that common . I’m concerned if I even wait a few months I won’t be able to get pregnant again and that’ll be my other problem, but on the other end I’m afraid if we try again next month we will and I’ll have another miscarriage. So either way I don’t know what to to do. Ppl say oh women have healthy babies in their 40s these days. Yeah that’s what I believed too but the word miscarriage never once crossed my mind. Maybe if ppl talked about it more and it wasn’t such a taboo topic so many women including me wouldn’t feel so alone. I used to want two kids now I would just be so grateful with at least one but my hole has really been shattered ... two miscarriages within 4 months especially at my age. I just don’t know how u bounce back from that. If anyone has positive stories similar to mine where they were able to have a healthy baby please do share. They say bad things happen to good people . Well I’m proof of that. 😓