So last night baby girl had a tummy ache and was very fussy when i realized that i had put garlic on my pizza so as she’s crying I’m crying because I realize I’ve done this to her. Tonight I’m laying in bed and I start thinking about how much I love her and how hard this is gonna be once my mom goes back home and I go back to work as I’m doing this alone and I just start bawling. You have to understand that I am not a person who cries easily and now I’m getting even more concerned and fearful as I don’t want to also deal with postpartum depression. I guess I’m just looking for some words of encouragement because I’m scared out of my mind..I know I can do this and every moment with her is precious to me I’m just emotional I guess which is normal but I hate feeling like I’m not in control of myself and my anxiety is going through the roof.