Older men

Okay this might be really weird but I am 18 and I’ve never been with anyone, but I don’t feel attracted to boys like at all. What I really want is an older man (not like old but maybe between 30-40) is this normal? I feel like most men are immature until they are that old which I know is dumb but I can’t help it. Also, does anyone think there are actually men out there that age that would date a younger girl? Or is that something you only see in movies? Any advice/comments would be appreciated 😊