Hello ladies,

I don’t know where to post this but really I need to talk and get things out of my chest..

So I am first time mom, I gave birth on February to a beautiful girl (c-section because she was in breech presentation)..

When she was born doctors diagnosed her feet as “clubfeet” which is birth defect happens to 1 in 1000 births.

I was very devastated, heartbroken, sad..

We begin her treatment when she was 5 days only.. doctors put cast on her legs and change it every week..

When she was 7 weeks her legs needed a surgery.. that day was the worst she cried a lot, she was in pain and refused to drink milk..

I think I have a postpartum depression.. all of that is happening very fast and I can’t cope with all the pain of c-section, my baby condition, sleep deprivation, struggling in breastfeeding...

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Besides this, I have a problem that is causing me pain.. I don’t know if it’s okay to feel this angry or not.. I want your advice and opinion..

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My husband’s family is so close, I love his mother and sisters.. we gather every weekend and we are all happy..

However, my husband’s brother’s wife is older than me.. they are TTC for 4 years now.. I understand her pain but I feel like she hates me..

When my husband told his family that I’m pregnant, she absolutely changed her attitude.. she doesn’t talk to me anymore, and even when I tried to talk to her she roll her eyes and walks away....

I was very sad then, I didn’t want to hurt her so I didn’t speak about my pregnancy in front of her.. but it seems like she never cared for my feelings!!

When I gave birth and my husband’s family knew about our daughter.. every family member came to visit and they are all concerned about my baby..

She didn’t show up.. she didn’t even talk to me...

I am very hurting day by day.. I mean, I understand her pain but I also have pain...

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What do you think ladies? What can I do? Do I have the right to be sad and angry??

What can I do to her??

I pray to god for her to get pregnant and be happy.... but by her attitude day by day I feel like I hate her so much!!

And that causing me more pain... I don’t like to hate people...