He left for Home today...

My SO and I are always at least an hour apart. He attends a university an hour away from mine and we see each other about twice a week during the semester for about five hours each day we see each other. And on weeks we have a lot of exams, we skip seeing each other all together in order to prioritize schooling as we agreed we should. His home is three and a half hours away and today was the day he left to go home for the summer for four months. I’ve been an emotional wreck for about a week now and the last twenty minutes of our goodbye it was just continuous tears as I tried to act normal. He’s the strong and sensible one. He’s also my best and one of my only friends. I’m going to miss him so much even though we’ll talk every day and write to each other. I’m just going to miss touching him in the simplest of ways- holding hands, feeling his hand on my back, and fired head kisses. I feel like this summer will be unbearable. I’ll be able to see him when I go see him for a few days but other than that we’re both working and taking summer classes so it’ll be tough to get away.

I’m so scared we’ll grow apart or something terrible will happen to him. I’ll go mad if he gets hurt and I can’t get to him.

I’m so lonely already and I have no friends I can tell this to. I miss him so much.