I won’t make this too long, but here’s the cap. A week before, my boyfriend and I was talking about marriage and kids like the real deal stuff not fantasizing also My boyfriend and I would have been together for 3 years and a month if I wouldn’t have been sooo stupid!

Okay so a couple of days before our anniversary my boyfriend asked me for reassurance of us. I got upset about it because he knows it make me feel like he is questioning our relationship. Me being an emotional brat I asked him why do he love me. And he got more upset than I did and we got into a huge argument over why I asked that question..(SN: I asked that question because he asked me for reassurance about our relationship, trying to prove to him that stuff like that seriously hurt) We argued and argued until it got to the point where we broke up. (SN: he put it out there asking do we need to break up and I got upset and asked why would we break up over an argument and I exploded and said “F*%k You whatever it’s done” ) So that was that... the day of our anniversary I had a mental break down literally and I called and texted and video called him.. No answer or Reply what so ever!!! But eventually he called me back and I cried and whined like a baby apologizing and relentlessly begging for forgiveness.. he said he couldn’t be in a relationship with me but he doesn’t want to lose me??? I LOVE HIM LIKE CRAZY, so I agreed to give him space. He didn’t forgive me though, he says I hurt him really badly! (SN: he has said little things to me and done little things that I have forgiven him for plenty of times but I Hurt him and I have to pay for it) It seems like the more time and space I give him the further he seems away from me like I can feel our connection rapidly dying from some toxin.. we have been broken for a month now without any communication..what should I do I really really love him he is my best friend!! It hurts to see him hurt and it hurts that he won’t let me fill the void I created! He is sooo stubborn and uneasy to forgive others! I kept trying to apologize profusely I even wished him luck on his finals and he said he greatly appreciate it as if I was some stranger telling him to have a good day today.. I don’t know what to do I wish he would let me apologize I wish he would forgive me for this stupid argument and take me back so we can love one another again!!!

In advance: Thanks for the Advice both rude and nice comments lol I like them all some mean comments can be handy to at times honestly everyone needs a little criticism! Thanks!! 💜💜