Im going to break things off

My boyfriend works two jobs and they’re both pretty laborious. Our times never match up plus we live an hour away. I feel like every time I see him, which right now is once a week, we fight. I’m upset that I never see him and it’s honestly just brought me to my breaking point. I’m already the only one that makes the drive. I feel like where most boyfriends would squeeze in the time to see me, he doesn’t even try. It’s the subject to all of our fights. I’m so tired of not being a priority. I think he loved the idea of me being his girlfriend, not so much as me being a real person with expectations, desires and needs of my own. Every time I bring up that it hurts me and it makes me sad, it’s just all about how he’s sorry he has dreams and is passionate about something. I get that, but he can’t even come to a compromise. I’m so done with the long drives. With the one sided “conversations” about how our fights need to stop. I miss how things were in the start before he had his job. When he actually had fun dates and I saw him for more than 12 hours a week. I know I deserve more, but it’s so hard to leave when I keep thinking there’s hope that the old him is going to return. But what if the old him was just a cover up for who he really is? We’ve only been dating for a little less than 6 months so lately I’ve really seen more of his true colors. I hate who he becomes when we fight. He accuses me of cheating and never loving him. He never has said sorry about anything. He never thinks he’s in the wrong. I just can’t do this. I’m sad and anxious to tell him I’m leaving. I’m broken and confused. I love his family and his friends and the thought of them not liking me because we broke up hurts me. It’s not like I want to break his heart. It’s not that I don’t love him. I just love myself and know I can’t go on with this.

Any encouraging words are helpful. It’s been on my mind for weeks and I’m just so stressed.