I'm done. I'm so done!!!!

I am tired of constantly trying and not getting a positive! It's been almost 2 years and nothing. I've taken vitamins, preseed, exercising, and even tracking. Apparently the ovulation strips say I'm never ovulating. It starts to darken but then goes light again. I also don't want the whole speel about "It'll happen" and blah blah. I dont want the speel about going to a doctor and everything. At this point I feel like I will never become a mother and I feel this is a sign I won't be a good mother either. I absolutely despise these women who can get pregnant purposely and on accident. But whatever.