Welp there ya have it folks, title says it all.

I dont know what it is but i cant see myself attracted to them at all 😩😩 ive dated and been into white guys mainly and hispanic men. My current bf is cuban and white (our relationship is coming to an end though) and as i think about life as a single woman i start to think about the men out there.

Let me remind you i am a nubian queen myself✊🏾 i LOVEEE my people, im SO happy to be black and i love my melanin to an extreme. But i just cant see myself with a black man and it kills me!!

Im assuming it has something to do with the fact that my dad has been breaking my heart non stop on and off my entire life. And in elementary middle and highschool the black boys would ALWAYS bully me and punched me in the arms for being so dark skinned. It ruined my self esteem and im almost 21 years old and still building myself back up from all that torment. Also, my mom (who has terrible luck with men might i add) has dated and brought nothing but white men in and out my life. She dates black men (obviously because of me and my brother) but its majority white men (both my sisters are mixed)

It ALSO has to do with the fact that there are ALOT of black men out there completely BASHING black women!!

So yeah idk. Kind of a rant kind of looking for advice kind of not really. Just drop your thoughts kindly.