Is there something wrong with me ?

I have been going through a lot for the last two years. I started cutting myself and I would so it whenever I felt upset, which was a lot back then, I went to councilors and they didn’t really help me so i kept things to myself. That’s when I stared to try and kill myself, some days I feel hopeless as there’s no point in waking up, I dread waking up and having to do the day all over again and listen to my thoughts, but then there’s some days where I love life and I would want to go out and enjoy life and do anything I possibly can do but for the last few weeks I just don’t see a point in life no more. I’m trying to get my friends to help me and they don’t know what to say, I think it’s all in my head.

Can someone please help me