So I know I sound like the worst person in the world but I had an early scan at 16 weeks and we found out it’s a boy.. I don’t know if any chance they could have got it wrong as I’ve read that can happen as girl parts can be swollen and look like a penis.

I wanted a girl more than anything and obviously I am grateful to carry my own child but I can’t help how I feel I’m worried I’ll never have a girl and almost feel no bond which sounds awful.. I get so upset seeing families with girls I can’t bring myself to go shopping for him as I see all the cute girly clothes. I’m such a girly girl and I’m so sad about it and it’s been a day or two since finding out and I don’t feel better.. we haven’t revealed to family or friends today I think we will to my mum today but I can’t hide the fact I’m disappointed and I feel like I don’t want a big reveal now..