so lo is 13 weeks, and we said we wanted another asap as 40 is approaching very quickly (we currently have a 19,13,11 & 13 week boys) so we agreed to ttc right quick so the youngest has a sibling close in age, and we get the exhaustion over with sooner.

When we were ttc with the others it was passionate and soooo HOT.

but this time dh, bless his heart is working so hard everyday he is exhausted everynight. he's either fallen asleep or its been a little lackluster in the passion department . (strictly due to his exhaustion)

so i let my thoughts run away....

are we making a mistake? if hes tired now how bad will it be with another? am i being greedy wanting a close in age playmate for this little guy? Should i stop thinking about another? will i be overwhelmed? will this put a wedge between dh and i?

our kids are so amazing and so helpful at home and already begging for another. dh is a born father he's amazing. we dont have much external support or a ton of $ but i think im a pretty decent momma. 😁

why am i freaking out now? why am i trying to make all the circumstances perfect?

my friends with "irish twins" all say its only hard for a little while, then its awesome.

so why am i being a nut?

any other mommas with close babies that can help talk me off this ledge of crazy?

i truly want another...soon....why am i being a nut bag?