Trying, not trying

Hi! I got my Nexplanon implant out a month ago because it was a few months “expired”. We were unprotected during the expiration and for a couple weeks after before I got the pill filled.

So for about 2 weeks straight I have been waking up nauseas. I feel silly because I say I want to wait because I am trying to finish my BSN in nursing. I have been a nurse almost a year with an associates. It would be nice to finish school before we have a little one. Also we booked a 5 year anniversary cruise to Hawaii for next April and it would be more work with a little one, and they won’t let you on pregnant. We got married at 20 and will both be 25 next April.

Despite what my brain says, I was hoping I was really hoping I was pregnant. But early this morning I woke up and had to go clean up because my period came a week early. I had to shed a few silly tears.

I’m debating not taking the pill and seeing what happens. I know I need to just keep to the plan my hubs and I have set. I know he is starting to think about little ones too. Guess I will let life take its course and try not to worry about it.