Call me crazy.

So for the sake of keeping this post short I live in Michigan and my husband took a job in North Dakota and currently lives there. We have been trying for a baby for I would say a little over a year with no luck. I went to North Dakota for his birthday weekend. April 26th-29th. I was ovulating and we really really tried. Lol probably some of that was just the fact we hadn’t seen each other in 2 months 🤣 anyways I’m 2 days away from starting my period and I’m dying in anticipation. I promised myself I would wait until I’m a full week late before I even test. I don’t know why I made that a rule. Maybe because I’m so afraid of it being negative again and having to wait until August to even try again. Or is it the fact that my body is telling me this one will be worth the wait. I’ve been so patient and understanding with gods plan but I am so ready for that test to read positive.