a quick vent

i pray, sigh* Hoping and keeping my faith as high as possible to recieve a postive test this upcoming week or weekend. but its scary. As much as I want to test, I am absolutely petrified to. my husbands birthday is on Mothers day and it honestly would be a great surprise to him but I fear that ill just end up with a BFN.

Today, well the past few hours has just put my mind in an emotional state. Though I know I have to remain positive. i feel myself just getting even sadder. i just need a hug or somthing....