I’m 20 and I’ve never had a boyfriend

Is it weird that I have never dated anyone before in my life?? Like I haven’t even had my first kiss. The most I have done is talked with a guy. And I can’t even talk to guys (with the exception of talking about school) because every time I talk to a boy I get anxiety, freak out, and avoid them. I know I’m attracted to them but I just don’t know how to talk to them. They make me so nervous and it makes me feel overwhelmed 😭😭😭 I feel like I’m gonna die alone 💔😭