I always get support on here so I wanted to tell you guys what happened to me today 😔I've been going through so much I lost my mom and I'm expecting my first baby and I know she would've been there with me every step of the way helping me I have alotof support from my boyfriend but I just wish my mom was here everything is changing for me ..I lost my car back in April due to my sister being mad at me and not going through with co signing so I basically had to give my car back and I've been having a hard time getting back and forth to the doctor my boyfriend lost his car as well and were working on getting another it's just the fact right now I really need to get to my appointments and my sister knows I'm pregnant and it just breaks my heart that she does not care ..anyway had an appointment yesterday to find out what I was having and my ride end up coming late and I had to reschedule but I was so anxious to see my baby for the first time last time I had an ultra sound was at 6 weeks and I didn't know I was pregnant I went into the ER For Really bad abdominal pain I couldn't see because they did an emergency ultrasound and when I went to my primary doctor he said I had to wait to get an ultrasound because I already Head one but that was in February and this was early April ..I guess so today I decided to go in the hospital clinic as an outpatient to check on my baby I was so emotional and nervous to see my baby but when the ultra sound tech came in she was so rude telling me she couldn't tell me anything or take any pictures they have to send everything over to my doctor and I asked her well can I a least look she told me "If you can See" mind you I was laying flat and the screen way behind so I said okay I'm 5 months by the way so I was so happy to see how developed my baby was so she was just being stuck up and rude about it I understand you have a job to do but the attitude was unnecessary this is my first baby excuse me for being excited i was so emotional So was going so fast and Everytime I looked up she was still on my ovaries but I looked up again and I see she's going over my baby spine and head I just started crying I just wanted to see my baby that's all idk why I was so emotional but later on another came in checked my baby heart beat said it was perfect and strong then the doctor came back in and said everything was fine with my baby and that made me happy I just been feeling really down and bad that I missed appointments I feel like I'm cheating my baby because of the no car thing lately and I just can't seem to feel better about it or find anything to be happy about besides now that I know the baby is okay