I finally left my husband after years of his alcoholism bringing us down. The constant promises to quit and failure to do so has driven me to a point of not loving him anymore.

I have tried to be a good wife. I have talked to him about it. I’ve went to counseling. I’ve set him up appointments at the VA. I’ve read books. I’ve reached out to substance abuse counselors to help him. I’ve finally realized after all of these years I’m enabling him by staying. I’ve shown him there are no real consequences for his actions. He just now made appts for the VA himself. But this is a never ending cycle. He goes. He gets medicine. He gets “headaches” from everything. He has to drink.

Of course it’s all of my fault. I make him drink and do things so he can’t treat me with love and respect. (I leave the lights on 🙄) unfortunately for him, his constant belittling of me has made me stronger and I’m realizing my worth.

I know I’m some of these I’m being very mean, but I’ve had it.

Thank you all for your support. We are still gone. He keeps promising this is it and he’s done but refuses to go to rehab. That tells me he isn’t serious. He will have to go anyways because when we go to court for custody I’m planning to tell the judge I want 50/50 custody after he completes rehab and submits to urine screens for alcohol. He isn’t a bad father when sober, and I would never keep my kids from him if he is.

Again thank you everyone! You’re all amazing ❤️❤️