Ok so I’ve never been one to care about the whole age thing but I’m 20 and I have this coworker who I flirt with and he flirts back🤦🏾‍♀️. He’s about to be 30 in June🙄. He grabs on my ass and he even kissed a couple times🤦🏾‍♀️ but I’m like ok so what will people say like yea I know I’m 20 but he’s about to be 30 and that’s a whole 10 year gap, not only that but we work together but I just can’t help it that I’m attracted to him🤤😩 like y’all he has dreads and tattoos and idk he’s jus different and everyone my age don’t have time for me. Like they don’t give me attention at all and I need attention like seriously I really do like it’s sad to say but I do. But the sad part about all of this is that I have a boyfriend, he’s 20, but he don’t give me any attention whatsoever and he doesn’t even post me like wtf and his excuse is that he don’t want anyone to know about me like what type of bullshit is that you guys like come on😐. And yes I know y’all are about to probably judge me and get in my ass something terrible but I needed to get this out. And like now we’re on FaceTime but he’s not saying anything and it’s so quiet and he just tried to get in my ass bcuz I’m not saying anything bcuz I’m too busy typing but it’s funny how the tables have turned bcuz I wud always call him and he wudnt say anything and then get mad bcuz I have an attitude and he wud put it on me, now that I’m doing wat he does it’s a problem like nigga please💀. O and he lives in Virginia so like I thought I could a long distance type thing but I can’t do it on my own like damn I’m not understanding it he can post other bitches on his Snapchat and instagram like wtf dude🙄 that shit hurts and then have ur bullshit ass sorry ass excuse for me like gtfoh. I’ve never in my life cheated on someone but he just keeps pushing me away like I don’t want to say I didn’t see this coming bcuz I did but not in this way 🤦🏾‍♀️. And then he don’t txt back but he watched my Snapchat and post on Snapchat and let’s face it I’m a crazy bitch n he shares his location and Snapchat tells u when someone was on there and this nigga wud be on a minute ago and won’t reply for hours😐 then wonder why I have an attitude and blame me and tells me I need to fix my attitude problem and we’ll be fine. Ok me I have a problem with having confidence within myself and problems with having high self esteem so when my coworker liked me off the back when he first started, I was there before him, like that made me good asf about myself. I’m not gonna lie I was like o ok someone likes me for me. I send my bf a pic and he skips over it and change the conversation and I’m like ok I thought I was cute and u don’t even care like damn. And then here comes my coworker telling me how good I look and he loves my personality and how I carry myself and I’m just like ur the reason my confidence has been going up, I didn’t really tell him that tho. But I’m just like isn’t this what I have a bf for🤷🏾‍♀️, to boost me up, not leave me on read or just not reply and just do the shit that he does. It’s just when my coworker kissed me I didn’t know wat to do🤦🏾‍♀️ and he tells me things that ur bf shud tell u and I’m jus stuck. Idk, I think I just came to u guys for some advice bcuz I’m losing my shit and don’t know wat to do and yes I kno I’m wrong before that even said. And sorry for all of my grammatical errors I tried to fixed them as I was typing🤦🏾‍♀️ also I didn’t really know where to post this and yes it’s posted anonymously bcuz I dnt want to get bashed too badly😭🙄🤦🏾‍♀️