Having a hard time

Found out I was pregnant in July. Did blood work put me right on track 6w. A week later switched over to an obgyn. My blood work dropped so low. They never called and informed me I was loosing the baby. Husband made me go er. it got so bad with the pain. Did an ultrasound it put me at only 7+2. No heartbeat nothing. Lady couldn’t even look at me. Kept turning the screen away. Finally sad screw this and went home. since the doctors were avoiding me.

Took a test this morning. Is it bad I don’t wanna tell anyone it is positive? I don’t even want my husband to know and get his hopes up again.