I met a French guy on tinder awhile back, we met up once in the city when I was with some friends, nothing big. He wanted to meet up with me today. At first I didn’t want to because I had just finished my finals but eventually I agreed. I waited to meet him at the mall but he took over an hour to do so. Eventually we go back to his place and we hook up, his dick was huge and thick (I haven’t had sex since August too).. it was pretty uncomfortable, he takes his hand and starts fingering me and I’m bleeding! Not just a little but it was running down my legs and dripped down to the floor. I wanted to stop but he kept going and saying “it’s ok”. And I just didn’t say anything. He finally cums and still wants to keep going!! But luckily food came so he stopped to get it. And I took a shower. The blood soaked a big wad of toilet paper. I was really scared and lightheaded. He wanted to have sex again but I said no and he was ok with that.

Here’s where I fucked up. On the way home (like 1 am) I was listening to music trying to calm down. I got pulled over for speeding. Not gonna deny I was. I’ve never been pulled over before. I was just trying to get home as fast as possible

I lied to my dad and pretended I was home before I got the ticket. I didn’t want him to worry about me meeting up with a guy, last time I did he had a panic attack. He’s out of town currently and I just don’t know how to tell him. We are very close and I know he’ll be disappointed. I just wanted to drive away from that situation and get back to my safe place. I know it was wrong to lie. I wish I would have never done it because it was not worth it at all.

Can anyone offer advice as to what to tell my dad? I can’t stop crying I feel so bad for lying. I don’t feel good about the situation with the guy either. I’ve never bled that much, not even when I lost my virginity and it was sooo scary. Can anyone offer me any advice or encouragement?

Thank you

(I’m 20, just finished my freshman year of college today. I live In my dad’s house and he takes care of me financially)

(Also the guy and I used protection, but I’m worried if my blood could spread anything. I’m clean, but that was a lot of extra body fluid. Is that possible?)