Im at that point where I feel numb

Abigail

I had written about this situation on here a while ago and now I’m talking about the same situation, I had mentioned how I met this guy but didn’t live here and when he went back he never reached out to me then I mentioned a second guy who for more than a year had liked me a lot and had even begged me to give him a chance but at that point in life I said no to him. Now I’ve realized that even tho i wanted the first guy...he never reached out to me again but the second guy was still there... Currently things have been so hard, I forgot about the first guy but something happened with the second guys sister, which was Tuesday and ever since then he changed with me idl if it’s because of that situation with his sister...and now Friday I’m over here finding out that he might be in a relationship with a girl. I saw some comments on Facebook and Instagram which lead me to believe that he does have something with a girl...I don’t want to admit how hurt I am because I forgot about the first guy and I started feeling something big something real for this one and I was showing him interest... everything was fine until Tuesday with his sister and now this is where I am, I don’t know what to do.. tomorrow I’ll definitely find out if he does have a girl and after that I guess I’m left to just be alone and suck it up and continue

I needed to talk