abusive

I am mentally, emotionally, and physically abusive to the man who has been so supportive, gentile, and selfless to me... Why?!?! It breaks my heart knowing I’m doing this to such an amazing man and i haven’t always been this way... Its like it consumes me and i can’t control it... Has anyone else ever experienced this??

I have a hx of depression, and anxiety.

Please no negativity...

If i could “just stop” i would.